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Feb 10, 2016 12:45:03 GMT
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 12:45:03 GMT
Evren
They listened to every word of his until he was finished with talking and they were done smoking. They blew out the smoke one last time and sighed out deeply, closing the slide door after throwing the remaining of the cigarette away in the ashtray as they walked to the kitchen and made another cup of tea for themselves. They thought about Luca, looking at the cup of tea as they stirred through it with a little spoon, closing their eyes slightly whilst they sank deeper into their thoughts. They realised that Luca meeting them hadn't been the best thing, along with Taylor being so close to her due to her parents, but she had wanted it and she seemed happy about it. They frowned slightly at the thought and took a sip of their tea whilst leaning against the counter. They had to figure out something that could help Luca, since they didn't want her to fail under pressure. She deserved and needed the succes. His words about himself stuck by them as well as they tried to figure out whether that was good or not as well."He can't? They licked their lips and furrowed their eyebrows for a moment. It confused them slightly, yet they reminded him once again. "Whatever you choose to do, the door if always open for you."
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Feb 10, 2016 12:55:38 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 12:55:38 GMT
Ash
He seemed to have found a way to shut them up for a little while what had surprised him, since he had thought they'd speak more into it, but it stayed quiet. Unless they were thinking about a way to respond, that could also be a possibility of course. He sat up straight on the couch eventually when he thought it would be best to do so for a bit. Lying around all day wouldn't be very helpfull. He heared them talk again eventually about what he said and smirked. "I won't be leaving so soon though. I like it here." he said calmly as he looked back at them and shrugged slightly. "Besides, wouldn't you be bored if you lived alone again?" he asked as he pulled his legs up on the couch and held his eyes on them. There wasn't much to do today anyway, so they could have a little bit of a chat about many things. If they'd like it or not, he'd get some full answer from them today on his questions. His reading people was getting a bit better, not spectacularly, but it was useable.
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Feb 10, 2016 18:52:01 GMT
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 18:52:01 GMT
Evren
They took a little sip from the hot tea, which made them scowl since it burnt their tongue and made it blister ever so slightly, they breathed out slowly and stuck their tongue out, hovering their hand over the teacup as it cooled down to a perfect temperature. They sighed out softly and walked to the chair that stood next to the couch and sat down, pulling their legs up as they took the cup in both hands and looked at him, raising their eyebrow slightly at his question. "I'm glad you like it here," they spoke calmly as they nodded slightly. "Uhm... It'd be a lot more silent for sure. And I'd miss out on my heater which would be very pitiful cause you're like a very soft pillow and a heater in one, I have to admit, that alone is quite addicting. But I think it'd eventually be boring because I don't have someone to randomly talk to, or who roams around the house and makes it less quiet."
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Feb 10, 2016 20:31:27 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 20:31:27 GMT
Ash
He looked at them when they seemed to have burnt their tongue as he softly chuckled and shook his head slightly. He looked them in the eye when they came to sit next to him on the chair next to the couch and he leaned with his head in his hand. "With other words, you'd miss me," he made it short for them as he shrugged and stretched his back a bit, enjoying that he could do that without his back hurting. "Hmm, a pillow?" He murmured as he rubbed his face for a second and squint his eyes slightly. "I didn't know I was pillow-like," he mumbled as he opened back to them and tilted his head a bit. "You seem to change too because of me and Luca though, does it bother you?" He asked them as he held himself calm. It was just a question, it would be boring if they just sat there and did nothing, a conversation didn't hurt when they were sober and not too tired. It helped for him anyway. "You seemed to have trouble with Declan though because of wat happened, why did you pull me away when he was fixing himself on me after he tried to take you down?" He now asked since he just reminded it.
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Feb 10, 2016 20:52:02 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 20:52:02 GMT
Evren
They looked up slightly when he spoke and raised an eyebrow as they slowly shrugged and then just agreed with him since it was no use to get into a discussion about it, he was right either way, even if they didn't want to admit so. They slowly nodded again when he spoke once again, they shifted slightly in their seat to get more comfortable and took a sip of their tea to get their attention to something else too. "I've noticed changes too, it appears to be that I get more emotions out that I used to. It does bother me somewhat, you guys deserve to see emotions coming from me since otherwise it'd appear as if I'm not grateful for having you two in my life or whatever. But I am grateful. It just bothers me that I am doing so because I feel weak when I do that, I feel weak because I spent most of the three centuries being heartless or rather, numb. This just is different to me," they spoke calmly and rubbed their forehead for a moment as they took the cup in both hands again. It was hard to admit for them, but they felt like he had the right to know. They couldn't go around it every time, they had to be able to speak fully to him, even if they disliked to do so. They looked up slightly to him again, searching for eye contact for a moment as they tilted their head slightly to think back about that moment. "Because.. I knew I could take him down since I could see his weak points, and that without getting angry whatsoever. But I also knew that if you or him would leap at each other, you both would get out ugly. Most likely with you being victorious since you're more advanced and well, you're demon. I feared that things would blow up and I didn't want to see you angry at a time where we should be able to have fun. That and seeing you angry it both fascinating and uhm.." They searched for the right words, since the words on the tip of their tongue weren't exactly what they wanted to say, it was a bit too much for them to admit. "It's both fascinating and a little scary, you are unpredictable," they eventually spoke.
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Feb 10, 2016 21:12:02 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 21:12:02 GMT
Ash
He smirked when they agreed and looked at the window for a little moment so he also could focus on something else whie they tried to come up with an answer. Once they began to talk he looked back at them and made eye contact again as he listened to what they had to say about his questions. When they were done talking he curled the corners of his mouth again a bit and shook his head slightly as he looked at the cup they were holding. "It's because you show emotion that you're able to calm me down at moments. When that thing happened in this place and you.." he paused to find the words, but he couldn't really find it anyway, so he sticked with his first thought. "Well, you practically begged me to stay with you and tried to get to me. I might be of the reaction of fear you did it, but if you had been calm and cool at that moment, I don't think I snapped out of it and just went out my fullest." He said, honest since it was no use lying about something like that. "And Luca enjoys you showing emotions too. Although it surprises me. It surprised yourself when you cheered at that moment yesterday, it was funny though. And how you eased in on Luca's touch. She was willing to let go if you stayed tense though," he spoke since he had looked at them and kept an eye on them. He shut up when they began to talk again about his second question and nodded slightly at what they said, understanding it completely. "I noticed you were scared, or atleast reacted on me as I am angry and as people shout somewhere you can hear it. Even before what had happened here. I think the first or second day when I raised my voice, and yesterday with Declan too," he said as he stroke through his hair and sighed. "It's cute though,"
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Feb 10, 2016 21:25:24 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 21:25:24 GMT
Evren
They rested their chin on their knee whilst listening to his words, furrowing their eyebrows for a moment as they processed what he had just said. They thought back about the attack, which already sent a shiver down their spine. But he was right, in the moment that they begged for him to come back to his senses, they were extremely emotional, at least for their doing, but it seems to have worked. He reacted to their fear and it turned to sanity and the feeling of needing to protect them. Which bothered them slightly since they were able to save themselves just fine. Though.. Without his help they probably wouldn't have held up against their parents and the memories of him holding their hand and keeping them close when they were at the NXT and WWE made them realise once again that him protecting them felt good. As if they were able to let their guard down for a moment and ease into the feeling of safety. At one side they were wanting to argue with it, it wasn't right, they needed to be independent and strong, but the other side of them screamed for it. For that something they never experienced. It was foreign, but it felt good. They sighed out softly and nodded slightly to agree with his words. "I begged you indeed, I suppose I can be glad I got so emotional at that moment," they mumbled, still having some trouble to admit it. "That surprised me too, I didn't even realise it until I actually stood and cheered, you probably also noticed how awkwardly I tried to shove that under the rug but apparently that didn't work," they smirked innocently for a moment whilst looking at him as they shrugged slightly. "I know she was willing to, but I also know she's quite an affectionate little lady and as her elder sister, I feel like I should be able to bring that safety and comfort. Her parents suck at it, so I kind of took over that job.. Weirdly enough," they spoke and scratched the back of their head when he addressed something that they rather would've left out. They didn't realise he noticed that much about them. It took them a moment to redeem themselves, they sighed and slowly nodded, placing with the spoon in their cup whilst looking at it. "I can't stand it when people shout, at least in anger. I mean, cheering is fine, it's excitement, I can take on that arena we were in when it's cheers or so. But when someone raises their voice with that hint of pure anger I just.. I grow so uncomfortable and it just.." They bit the inside of their cheek, squinting their eyes slightly whilst they debated what they should tell and what they shouldn't. "It just brings back memories of a time that really fucked me up," they sighed and shrugged, looking at him again. "I don't see how it's cute. I even get a little uncomfortable when Taylor gets all primal and screams her lungs out in the ring. Against Nikki, right? When she snapped, or when Declan and Taylor snapped, it just made me scared of what could happen. They're unpredictable humans, funnily enough."
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Feb 10, 2016 22:38:14 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 22:38:14 GMT
Ash
He looked at them as they seemed in thought about what he ad said again and he just stayed calm, waiting for them to speak up their mind. It was always interesting to see what they would say after being in thought. He also thought about his words for a moment. He didn't try to insult them or make them feeling awkward, but he wanted to know what was going on in their mind, knowing what they really felt and really wanted to say at times as they couldn't. Like yesterday when they seemed to be annoyed by their words as they had invited him into bed with them. "It's not a bad thing," he mumbled when they still seemed awkward about telling this to him, but he understood, he'd have the same probably. "Yeah I noticed, it was funny to see though. How you jumped up and cheered all of a sudden, you got some people dumbfounded," he said, speaking about Ivy and Luca who had mostly noticed it, and himself of course. He listened further to their words as he looked at their eyes again and smirked. He noticed again how they felt awkward and a bit out of place when he spoke about their unease with shouting and anger. He was happy with it though, he had found a spot that they rather didn't talk about, but he had their parents too, though they were easier with that. He waited for them to continue their sentence and held his eyes on them, until they talked again and he let out a soft chuckle. "You can talk to me you know. I want to know things too, to help. I can't do much probably, but when you feel more comfortable, please tell me," he spoke, whilst he still had his head leaning into his hand as he held his eyes on them to see every change in their body language. "I didn't mean that it was cute that you get scared or uncomfortable, it's cute how you try not to show emotion in general and can't help but let it out eventually. they are unpredictable though, I agree," he said as he waited for them to break their focus off of him before leaning more to them and pecked their lips. "Humans aren't the only though," he said right after that as he stood up from the couch and walked over to the kitchen to grab a glass of orange juice, since he was too lazy to get some coffee, it took too long, just like tea..
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Feb 10, 2016 22:54:16 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 22:54:16 GMT
Evren
They scratched their temple for a moment and slowly took a sip from their tea again as they waited for him to answer their answer with either more questions or additional content which they'd have to think through. They sighed out softly as the tea went down their throat and warmed it up slightly, leaving their lips with a slight distinguished taste of cinnamon and pear. They looked up when he spoke again, making eye contact once again since it was so respectful and they wanted to see his reactions to their words as well. To know when they spoke too much, but what they found dumbfounded them slightly, he seemed so calm and understanding about it all that it made them frown slightly for a moment. "It's not a matter of feeling uncomfortable about telling the matter to you, it's more.. It's more that I fear your reaction to the whole thing. To the way I feel about it or the fact that it happened.. Which ultimately makes me uncomfortable, goddamn it," they sighed and rubbed their face with one hand as they shrugged slightly and looked at him again, taking another sip of their tea. "I gotta adapt to people's ways, otherwis-" they got cut off by him pecking them on their lips, which made them automatically close their eyes, only to open immediately after and become widened, their eyebrows raised high. They had their lips slightly parted in shock as they heard what he said and slowly they felt their cheeks become more heated, they just knew they were turning a rosey colour and it would mean that they were blushing. They bit their bottom lip when he moved to the kitchen, blinking a few times as they looked at their cup and slowly took a sip again, trying to seem unphased about it, yet it stirred them right up. That was the first, very brief, moment that their lips had met whilst neither of them had even had a single drop of alcohol. They seemed to blush harder due to realising that fact. They rubbed their cheek and slowly took another sip, trying to find their train of thoughts again, but not much was of common sense. They mentally facepalmed themselves for having such a reaction to it. It had been so unpredictable indeed that it threw them right off track. "S-So I notice," they mumbled, annoyed with how they couldn't even speak normally. They felt like a small schoolgirl, wanting to squeal and jump around due the excitement that raced through their body. It felt so foreign and strange that it took them a bit to figure out, eventually they slowly took a sip of their tea again to finish the cup, as they placed it on the coffeetable.
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Feb 10, 2016 23:13:44 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 23:13:44 GMT
Ash
He had smirked again slightly at their words and shrugged. "Yet still uncomfortable what makes me say the right thing. I may not seem like a very observing person or not reading people like you and your sister do. It's easier for me to get to know you, how you feel and act underneath the pokerface and the cool atmosphere you have around you by the little things you do, say, or show. It's making it worthwhile for me. I still can't read people, I just wait and see. Since everyone is annoying in my eyes at first. You were the first day by looking my way and eventually signing me to come outside. It gave me a reason to leave, but if I were in a worse mood, or maybe even in a better mood, that wouldn't have been the case." He said and yawned slightly since there was still some tiredness in his body for sleeping that long and sleeping pretty good. He had looked at their reaction after he had given them a kiss and he didn't think much about it at first. It seemed like a normal reaction that anyone could get if it had been done like that. He chuckled at the thought as he sat back down with his glass of orange juice and took a sip from it as he looked back at Evren. "It's a normal reaction, right? It's nothing to be annoyed about or to feel awkward. Or try to hide it 'cause your eyes are giving it away, just as those red cheeks," he said as he put his glass on the table and pulled his legs up on the couch. He also felt the same way as they did actually. He didn't know how to place the feeling now they were sober and how he'd face them after this, how they would go on again. He took a deep breath and looked back at them eventually after breaking away from his glass and leaned his head again in his hand. "We're in a relationship right?" He asked and looked at their eyes again
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Feb 10, 2016 23:21:32 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 10, 2016 23:21:32 GMT
Evren
They nodded slightly to his words, thinking the day over as they rubbed their cheek again and sighed out softly, placing their feet on the floor for just a second so that they could fix the socks they had creeping down below their knee whilst they were supposed to go up halfway up their thighs. They sighed softly once again, trying to calm their heart down as they bit their bottom lip for another moment, why did he linger? It felt as if they craved more, which made them feel somewhat greedy and hopeless, at the other side it seemed logical. They looked up to him with their eyes, but as soon as his sentence progressed, they hid their face in their knees, becoming more shy and more red from his words. "Tease," they just mumbled as they ran their hands through their hair and cleared their throat, looking up to him again as they slowly nodded. "Yeah," they whispered. They indeed were in a relationship, but it almost felt as if they weren't with how they both acted towards each other. They held hands and slept in the same bed, but other signs of affection only seemed to happen when they were either tired or drunk. Now that they were both sober, everything seemed to be shoved away again. Compared to Luca and Taylor and Declan and Ivy, they seemed like friends, very close friends if they judged from the way they acted only. They licked their lips and scratched the back of their head for a moment, since they didn't really know where he was going with that question, all they could think of was that they indeed were in a relationship, but it was such a struggle to show the pure affection and love or even care that the other two couples did. Then again, they seemed to have less trouble with it as they massaged him just a few moments ago.
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Feb 10, 2016 23:50:20 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 10, 2016 23:50:20 GMT
Ash
He didn't expect much of a reaction out of them right now being shy and stuff. They may be androgynous, and yet they held more things from a girl right now with how they acted so shy. He let a small smile appear on his face again when they reacted like that on his words and let it disappear quickly after. He had still a hard time smiling honestly, showing how happy it actually made him that they were there with him and happy he wasn't alone anymore after losing his parents and the rest of his family. He sighed softly and stretched his back again when they whispered something onto his words and bit the inside of his cheek a bit to keep himself a bit busy. He actually also lingered or another touch of their lips, but the moment he had just a moment ago was gone and he felt insecure about it again, shutting it out once again. It was true that it didn't look like they were really in a relationship like the others. Being all affectionate and lovey dovey, only focussing on eachother. He also focused on Evren, but he kept an eye on their surroundings too. He wanted them to be safe, to not worry too much, but it took him off guard sometimes when something happened to Evren like that time with Declan, but it had been no deal eventually. He really wanted it to develop though. It had only ben a week or two weeks, so he didn't expect much from it yet. Maybe they'd never show much affection towards eachother and they'd keep standing with their backs to eachother, holdings eachothers hand rom far away, he didn't know how he would react to that. He closed his eyes slightly at the thought and sighed softly, not knowing what they should talk about right now now it had hit a dead point of them being quiet again and him not able to think about something except for feeling the need of receiving affection right now, but he kept it hidden, it wasn't important right now. As he thought about Declan though, he wanted to be like him too, being cool and chill, yet having the perfect girl who could take care of him and how he handled her with care and love. He knew he couldn't be like him, he knew everything would get in his way, and the question would also be if Evren would accept it, and he doubted that.
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Feb 11, 2016 0:13:40 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 11, 2016 0:13:40 GMT
Evren
It stayed quiet and it brought a certain sense of awkwardness and tension between them, one they couldn't describe and didn't know where it came from. They rubbed their cheek for another moment, until they felt like it was completely gone. They slowly sat back and closed their eyes for a moment, their conversation had come to an end, which was somewhat logical to them since they both weren't great speakers. But the thing that annoyed them was that there was this certain tension. They licked their lips and bit their bottom lip for a moment, thinking of what they could say or do. Things roamed inside their mind but it all seemed so inappropriate, not right for the moment or even not right for the mood. How did other couples have it all run so smoothly? Were they really that messed up? They tilted their head slightly, debating on what they should do to close this tension off and break the silence. Eventually they closed their eyes and ran their fingers through the messy blonde hair on top of their head, feeling the sides of their head and coming to the conclusion that they really had to cut their hair, it looked like a hot mess and they felt like it wasn't the best look. Eventually they stood up, grabbing their cup as they fixed their shirt and walked to the kitchen again. The shirt reached just below their bum, but it was so wide that the collar could slip of their shoulder. Which was also due to the cut of the shirt, but it gave them a more girly look, especially with the long socks they wore. Which just were comfy, they liked them because they were so comfy and soft against their skin. The bit of leg that was exposed seemed to be even whiter due to the burgundy colour that their socks were, along with the black shirt that emphasized their skin colour even more. Sometimes they felt transparent due it. It was a silly thought that ran through their head as they cleaned the cup and put it away, but it seemed to be one of the few things they could actually focus on. Perhaps they should try to shut their mind off and go for what their body decided, or their heart, but they were more of a thinker rather than someone who went by heart, so it didn't seem logical to them. Eventually they walked over to him again, looking at him as they softly stroked through his hair, after hesitating for a moment. They tilted their head slightly, squinting their eyes a bit. "Unpredictability.." They mumbled quietly, speaking their thoughts more rather than thinking it through over and over again. "It's a strange thing, yet good for combat, for example.. Or to catch someone off guard like you just made happen," they mumbled and tilted their head to the other side as they softly and slowly ran their fingertip across his jawline. "Though, in such situations it shows a need for something, doesn't it? Or rather, a longing. And my reaction either enhanced that or.. Well, I can't think of any other options in all honestly." They whispered softly, resting their hand against his shoulder as they softly pushed him back a bit, taking place on his lap, with their legs on either sides as they raised an eyebrow and looked at him, a pink plush rushing to their cheeks again as they tried to seem serious about it for the rest, keep their pokerface on. "Then why is it that us two have such trouble displaying such said things?" They questioned, resuming to answer their own question whilst they looked at the places of skin they traced down again, first his cheekbone and then his jawline again. "When all it takes is unpredictability." They mumbled quietly, raising their eyebrow once more as they slowly looked up to him with their eyes, the ice blues seeming to betray more than they noticed. "A certain action to set the mood, which should be followed by a reaction."
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Feb 11, 2016 0:53:47 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Feb 11, 2016 0:53:47 GMT
Ash
The last thing he had wanted to do was make the situation awkward, and yet it still happened without him noticing until it was very quiet again and sometimes hearing them move in the chair, but that was about it. He could hear the sounds ouside and hear the sound of wind going past the windows, whistling softly as he tried to focus on where it was coming from, what direction. He didn't know how to break free from this awkward silence again, and i was pretty annoying for him too since he had brought them into this situation in the first place. He looked up from his glass where he had been staring to when they stood up and followed their movement back to the kitchen for a moment before grabbing his glass again and took a sip from it again, enjoying the taste of the liquid. He really enjoyed good food and drinks, even if it was just orange juice, it was almost the only juice he really drank since he wasn't a real fruit lover anyway. He could stick with apple juice though. He put the glass back on the coffee table as he thought about this situation. He didn't know it could be really this hard to show affection to someone you like, it was upsetting to him that he couldn't just speak up his mind. He snapped out of his thoughts when he felt them stroking through his hair what made him look up to them, listening to their words. He didn't really know where they were going right now with that, but he stayed calm with it till now and waited for what was to come. He felt their fingertip follow his jawline as they spoke again, frowning slightly as he got pushed back slightly and looked at how they came to sit on his lap, reminding him of Taylor the first time he had met her, which made him want to run away in the first place, but he reminded himelf quickly that he shouldn't run away from Evren in the first place. He tilted his head slightly leaning a bit more in their touch as they went on with touching his cheek. The blush on their face was very cute though, he had to admit, and the had to admit it to themself too, athough they wouldn't. Where was this going really? He had an idea, but he didn't know if it was a good idea to pull it off as they felt both awkward, though they were able to hide it from him right now, it looked like that anyway. He looked deep in their eyes when they seemed to have stop talking as he took the time to process everything they had said to him right now. He snorted softly as an idea came up in his mind where this would be heading, but he pushed it away as he let his hands rest on their thighs so he could go somwhere with them, shutting his thoughts out for now as he went blank and lean forward to meet their lips with his, pulling them a bit more down with him since he was too lazy to sit up straight the whole time. The longing feeling slowly faded away as he closed his eyes and realised what he was doing, his mind telling him to quit it, but well, he didn't mind it, he liked the touch on his lips. How was it easy for normal people to kiss out of nowhere? Why did he have o make his head clear of thoughts before he could do something affectionate liked this and feel happy about it anyway. How did Declan do this shit? They weren't that different.. Well he just stayed forgot about it, forgot about everything really and only lived in the moment right now.
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Feb 11, 2016 1:10:07 GMT
Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Feb 11, 2016 1:10:07 GMT
Evren
They waited, and waited, and waited for what seemed like forever. It started out to them doubting if this had been a good idea. It never really had been a good idea, they were on his lap for Satan's sake and it freaked them out slightly how they had just smoothly sat down, without a single doubt in their mind. But that kind of changed now. However, he leaned in, which made them raise their eyebrows slightly. They had been out for that, haven't they? They needed to man up. So as he got closer, their eyes slightly closed and when they got pulled down, their breath hitched in their throat. However, they obliged and kept their lips softly on his, waiting for a moment as they slowly wrapped an arm around his neck, but kept their other hand lightly against his cheek as they were still stroking over his skin, softly with their thumb this time. They eased into the kiss, their eyes closed fully as they breathed out softly through their nose. At first everything seemed to stop, the longing feeling becoming fulfilled. But then it came crashing down upon them what they were doing, it made them furrow their eyebrows for the slightest moment, it even made them pull away slightly, but then they realised that it wasn't what they wanted to do. What a mess a mind could be.. Or rather, a mind versus a heart. They sighed out softly against his lips before deepening the kiss again, wrapping their arm better around his neck, yet keeping it loose as they ran their fingers softly through his hair and sat up slightly closer to make it more comfortable for the both of them.
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