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Aug 21, 2017 2:12:17 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 21, 2017 2:12:17 GMT
Skyler
He looked at her and nodded at her words about Ellie. "She sure does, but it's not bothersome. I actually like listening to her, or having conversations with her." He said and held a hand through his hair when some strands fell into his eyes. Now that he only had one hand to do his hair with the ice pack in his other hand, it was really somewhat uneasy to get it like he wanted, but he managed. When she spoke up further about not thinking too long he sighed and nodded, knowing that he shouldn't be thinking too long about it since it really could be gone if he didn't take the chance now he still could. "I'll try to make a decision within this month." he mumbled more to himself again than to her, but he seemed to be doing that more lately, and he didn't notice he spoke his thoughts out loud. Not that he had secrets to keep, but if he had a tongue slip about someone he'd get in trouble in some situations, so he should pay attention to it. He walked into the classroom and glanced over at the only two seats being free right next to each other. This class really.. He didn't mind it and went to sit at the other free space, listening to what the teacher said and making work of it, having one hand holding the ice pack in place and doing his work with the other, until he was sick of the ice pack and just put it aside for a moment, displaying the bruise that pretty much covered his whole cheek from around his eye to his jawline. It wasn't pretty, but as long as people wouldn't be staring he'd be fine. He looked over what they had to do and didn't think it was a hard thing to do for him, anything from what he has gotten wasn't hard for him, but he liked easy things too sometimes
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Aug 21, 2017 22:16:37 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 21, 2017 22:16:37 GMT
Jay
After that eventful day, time had passed by rather quick again. It became close to a month since the whole happening and Jay was finally healed up completely from the beating Davor had taken. But it didn't mean that she hadn't been busy with it in her mind or outside of school. She kept on it with hawk eyes, making sure nothing else would occur like it. It had become so bad that she had been missing days of school just so she could go back and forth between threatening people she worked with and protecting her family by tracking them down and spying on them. She felt like a disgusting person because of it, rather evil to be more specific. She was as bad as the people she worked with and that was something she didn't want to be. It was her game to play and yet she played like one of the pawns. But she had to, in order to protect everyone around her. It just seemed impossible to do fully. There were people that respected their boundaries as long as their goods came on time and their agreements didn't go flying out of the window. It kept her locked inside her own place too, glued to her computer because she had so many things to do. At this point she was having so little sleep that she didn't even function properly. She snapped faster, wasn't taking care of herself like she usually would, she was an absolute mess and yet she kept her chin high in front of everyone, even Davor who knew well enough that she wasn't feeling well because he had the exact same thing going on. And yet he was barely with her, making her feel lonely. She figured he was done with her, since she had messed up the empire they had build up by not being closed off enough. Not only did she feel like she had disappointed him, but she also felt like she had disappointed and let down her family, Ellie and Skyler. Though she didn't show many emotions, she was like any other girl of her age, she felt a lot. But where normal girls of her age could just deal with it by talking with their friends or doing whatever, she couldn't. So she kept a bottle of any strong type of alcohol next to her at all costs. Anything to not be faced with the reality of her own emotions and thoughts. Just to take off the edge however, since she wanted to stay focused enough to be able to do what she did. It was getting close to noon already and she still sat in front of her computer, wearing nothing but some undies and a big t-shirt, curled up on her chair and glued to her computer screen. The screen had become blank a while ago, she was just staring at the white that displayed on all six screens, all of different sizes. Davor was no where to be found, so she was completely alone and quite lost. She didn't know what to do, skip school entirely or still make the effort of turning up. Was that still worth it? It could bring danger again, as long as she stayed at home, the people she worked with wouldn't find her. The underground wouldn't beat up an innocent boy. Her gaze shifted from the screen to the desk and her hands found their way into her hair, gripping it tightly whilst her elbows rested on the desk. It all became such a mess after the incidents, normally she could deal with this perfectly, but that was because she didn't need to worry about others, she had isolated herself well enough. It had been a mistake to interact with their new classmate a few months ago. Hadn't she done that, she wouldn't have been in this mess. But then again, she usually was capable of getting out of the mess too and right now she just kept sinking deeper and deeper. Perhaps it was better to move away, or just disappear entirely. If that was the case, there would be nothing to chase. Her hands trembled at the thought and the reached for the bottle next to her again, taking a few big sips and pulling a disgusted face at the burning that went down to her empty stomach. Eating was an issue too, she rarely was hungry. She rarely had time to eat as well, so that all led to her eating far less than she should. Though she managed to pull herself away from her computer. Fresh air, she needed that, she needed to clear her mind again, alcohol wasn't working well enough. She had been having suicidal thoughts for the past week, something like that anyway. And it had begun to escalate real quick. Her skin had been a victim of her mind, picking and scratching her arms until it bled. She was covered in band-aids, hoping it'd help to make it stop. Her face had little scabs too, tiny dots like freckles because her sharp nails kept reaching for 'itching' skin. With wobly legs she walked over to her closet, pulled out a pair of jeans and put them on. She threw off the big shirt and looked at herself in the mirror, cringing at the sight of her visible ribs. This wasn't healthy, she realized, but she couldn't get herself out of it, that was the whole problem. Though she knew how to cover it up well, wearing a sweater did the trick. She grabbed one out of her closet as well and put it on, searching for socks and shoes to wear as well. Her hair was becoming slightly greasy, she did shower still, but her hair always something she didn't wash often because it otherwise would grease up so quick and become awful. Not that it looked pretty now, so she threw it up into a bun. Her face was probably the worst part. She looked awfully pale, had extremely dark circles and eyebags and overall just looked lifeless. No colour, no sparkle in her eye, nothing to indicate that she was doing well and was being healthy. But lipstain helped, along with some foundation and eyeliner. Just to not have people stare, so no one would ask questions. Whilst dressing up she had decided she'd still go to school, perhaps that'd help her straighten out her mind a bit. So she left after grabbing everything she needed and looking up their schedule so she could bring the right books and knew where to go. Twenty minutes, something like that it took her to arrive at school, walking instead of driving up to the building. It was dangerous to drive in her state, so she didn't want to risk it. Besides that, she had drank enough alcohol to be fined for it. But the smell wasn't noticeable, she had put on a good perfume and brushed her teeth along with getting some chewing gum. So once she arrived in class, luckily at the beginning of it, it looked like she was doing rather okay. Not looking too bad, until someone looked up close.
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Aug 21, 2017 23:13:48 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 21, 2017 23:13:48 GMT
Skyler
Another month had passed by rather fast to his feeling, and yet so terribly slow. After that day he had been beaten up by the stranger and the guy in their class, things seemed to change, and with things he meant Jay. There were many days when she just didn't come to school anymore, and it didn't feel right. He only had sent few messages to see if she was fine, or if she was sick, but didn't push it since Ellie really had sent over more than one hundred messages while he only send like four. If she didn't respond he took that as her wanting to be left alone, so he didn't want to push, yet Ellie was different in that, but he let her. She got as much response as he got, which was practically nothing. The times she would come to school she looked like shit, and it didn't seem to get better at all. It frustrated him since he didn't know what was going on and he couldn't help, first of all because she'd say there was nothing and second of all even if she told she wouldn't let him help. It dragged his own mood down the longer she stayed away and didn't show any sign of life further more. Ellie didn't seem too affected by it, sure she was spamming her all day to get a reaction, but she still kept talking and acting as she usually did. He on the other hand was a bit more cautious with how he acted and what he told who keeping more to himself, he didn't know why, but her not being here surely worried him. He never grew attached to people, not quickly anyway, not like he seemed to have towards Jay, without a good reason that is. She was kind at one moment, distant all the time, not wanting people to know how and what was going on in her life, and she would lie to make people shut up about it. He didn't know why he took interest in her and why it affected him in the way it did. His routine changed, and he sure got scolded by his parents the last couple of days because of how he acted, his grades were dropping slightly, but he still was far above the average of the whole class, so it wasn't that noticeable and nobody cared anyway. As for today he wasn't paying attention to what the teacher had to say, or what Ellie was blabbering about, only responding with hums and nods, not listening at all but she didn't even seem mad about it or didn't notice. He had thought about his dream of becoming an idol, he had set the month at least, and well, he had auditioned at the stations that were set here in America. He yet had to receive an answer if he was accepted or not, and after that he had to decide if he wanted to join or let it rest after all. His parents didn't know about it, and he wanted to keep it that way if he decided not to go, since he didn't need more annoyance and anger over him than he already had right now. His attention was pulled back into the class when he felt Ellie punch his shoulder, making him look up at her in surprise and follow to where she was looking, widening his eyes when he saw Jay was back. He automatically smiled at her, it came natural. Yet, it didn't linger long as he saw the state she was in. She could hide it up as much as she wanted, she had said herself that he was more observant than anyone else and asked more questions than everyone else, so she should know he could see right through the thing she had going on right now. She looked even more like shit than before, and that was and understatement. How had she become like this, she looked far beyond healthy and annoyingly enough it affected him, feeling guilty without any reasons to be feeling guilty. What was going on really? "Welcome back," he said, trying to show a small smile, straining it since he couldn't wholeheartedly smile at this point.
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Aug 21, 2017 23:41:16 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 21, 2017 23:41:16 GMT
Jay
She looked around for a moment to see where there was an empty spot, which was behind Ellie and Skyler, just like it always was. For some reason it felt as if it had been months that she'd seen them, rather than probably a few days ago. So when her eyes landed on Skyler, she immediately knew enough. He noticed and yet he tried to make it seem like he didn't notice by smiling. But even that smile.. It was different and it bothered Jay, had all her effort been in vain? She walked over to them and nodded back slightly, sitting down behind them and grabbing her books. Ellie seemed to immediately turn around and bombard her with questions, asking her where she had been and shaking her by her shoulders, making her slap her arms away and looking up with an angry gaze to the blondie that now looked at her with shock. "We discussed this ages ago, Ellie. Don't touch me, you know I don't like it," she spoke with a calmer voice, since the hurt and shocked look on Ellie's face made her realize she had reacted far too sharply. "I'm glad to see you too," she then mumbled, looking back at her books and trying to find the right page, since class had just started when she walked in. It was luckily written on the board, otherwise she could just ask one of her acquintances. Her eyes moved over the page quickly, frowning slightly when she noticed her concentration and focus was far off. So she read again, concentrating more and sighing out softly, she already knew the topic. That was good luck, it seemed like her mind would not be able to react properly to trying to stamp in school things. Sitting back slightly she looked at Skyler for a moment, not understanding why he seemed slightly off. Wasn't he supposed to be doing well? She had tracked him too, he had auditioned at some agencies, something he wanted to do for a while. Wasn't it? So why wasn't he happy? The small smile he had given seemed so fake, so forced. It wasn't his usual bright and youthful smile, all pearly whites and eyes made to be a thin line of joy. Had she missed something? She didn't respond to his messages, nor to those of Ellie, so maybe she had missed something? Maybe he wanted to tell her something, but didn't know how to start the conversation. And yet that seemed so unlikely, so she waved the idea away. What was it then? Ellie seemed fine, her usual bright self, aware again that she had to be careful with Jay. Their class seemed to be acting normal too, the usual weird glances and stares, the glares and soft whispering because suddenly Jay appeared again out of no where, without anyone knowing where she had been and why she had been gone. That all seemed normal, but Skyler didn't, he was off. Not as much as she was, but that was hard to beat by now, so what was going on in the boy's mind then? Had she really missed something important? He didn't look beaten up, so that couldn't be it and otherwise she would've been alerted, she had put alerts on every phone number she had of the underground, she even was able to track and trace them without phones on them, so that couldn't have been it.
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Aug 22, 2017 0:43:35 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 0:43:35 GMT
Skyler
He had kept the smile up until she had passed by him, letting it fall of his face immediately after and looking back at the little note book he had in front of him laying on the desk. He took a deep breath to calm himself down since he felt very on edge right now, he felt uneasy. He didn't pay much attention to Ellie that was now bombarding Jay with questions and wanted to know what she had been up to, knowing she wouldn't get an answer anyway, so he didn't bother to follow it, until he noticed Ellie back away rather quickly when she seemed to have pushed the wrong buttons. He didn't know if he had to believe what Jay gave as response. He could understand that she wasn't touchy and didn't like it when Ellie touched her, but it seemed more like a defense so Ellie wouldn't notice how thin she was and how bony she would feel underneath those clothes. Jay also seemed on edge, but that was to expected with how she looked and how she probably felt. He twitched in his seat, not feeling comfortable at the moment, nausea kicking in without good reason to do so. Maybe the image of her not taking care well of herself, if he compared it to a month ago, she sure looked ten times better. Was it his fault after all? It's bee going downhill since the accident, since he got beat up. He shook his head slightly to get the thoughts out of his head, pressing the palm of his hand against his forehead, feeling a headache coming up as quick as the nausea had come. Ellie had become careful with what she said to Jay now, but once she laid her eyes on him again, she enthusiastically began talking to him again, placing her hand on her arm to make sure he was listening and he knew she was talking to him. He let it be as it wasn't abnormal for her to do, he grew accustomed to it, but it didn't feel right this time. He didn't want to pull back, since he didn't want to see her hurt expression like earlier with Jay, he didn't want Ellie to feel bad, so he just followed her story this time, responding the same as he had done earlier, putting up a smile if she told something good that had happened to her, or if she told some sort of joke. That until he couldn't take the hand on his arm anymore and he softly and kindly removed it of his arm, squeezing her hand slightly, looking at her, being glad she didn't think anything of it. He let his hand rest on hers for a bit before he pulled back and moved in his seat again, straightening his back before he sat comfortably again. It was funny that Ellie was really in her own world when she was talking, not noticing or pretending not to notice how people were feeling around her, and he didn't know if he liked it or hated it. He really wanted that skill if she was pretending, if she was just that ignorant that she really didn't notice, he'd rather move away from her right this instant. As for the rest of his classmates he didn't care for, they didn't notice Jay's condition, and he know knew how it should feel for her sometimes that just no one was paying attention, or was that just him? Wasn't she feeling lonely if everyone just moved away from her, even if she chose for that herself. He balled the hand that supported his head into a fist and stood up, asking to excuse himself for a moment before walking to the bathroom and throwing water in his face to refreshen himself. He looked at his reflection in the mirror and chuckled slightly. He didn't have any reason to feel like shit and look as pathetic as he did now. Everything in his life was fine. He had his parents's love even if they were stern with him and scolded him, they wanted him to do good for his own future, he had friends, or what he liked to call friends to talk to. He shook his head wildly to get everything out of him and looked back at his reflection tilting his head slightly to look at the little scar that was still on his cheek. It was noticeable if you didn't pay attention to it, which he was glad for, but seeing it made him think back to those days. That one evening someone decided that it was fun punching him, and the guy in the class, which he still didn't understand why he had had find it a good idea to punch him in a classroom, or even why. But what did it have to do with Jay, why was she seemingly affected by what happened those days? Was she annoyed by him jumping in that time, that wouldn't be the reason for it, he was pretty sure about it. But what was it then? Had he done something wrong? Maybe it was a coincidence and something just happened in her personal life and he was just only thinking about himself, thinking he had something to do with it. He chuckled at the thoughts going around in his head, not getting anything useful out of them. He was fine ten minutes ago, why was he acting so pathetic now? He stood up straight again since he had leaned with his hands onto the sink, walking out of the bathroom, but not making an effort to go to the classroom again. He needed air, he felt like he would faint if he didn't get some fresh air at this moment, and then he could just clear his mind and be his usual self. He should just act like the rest, not being affected by Jay that looked like shit, pretending it was fine, not minding her business, not taking interest in it. Had it been better if he hadn't approached her? Maybe what she had said those days were right, about wasting his time asking questions. He didn't have problems with her not answering questions, but if he was left with unanswered questions, he tended to overthink them and want to know why he wasn't getting answers, and it was eating him at this moment. Once he got outside he sat down on the spot Jay was usually sitting, well, rather where he sat when Jay was there, trying to clear his mind for as much as he could right now.
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Aug 22, 2017 1:04:33 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 22, 2017 1:04:33 GMT
Jay
She had been minding her own business for most of class, just trying to make the assignments, do her homework like a good schoolgirl like she usually was. But it wasn't exactly working, putting on an act wasn't as easy as it seemed. Which was why she was glad that Ellie moved on to Skyler and yet it didn't feel right. There was an uneasy tension hanging in the air and it slowly made her chest grow tight. Skyler really was off, but what it was caused by she didn't know. It crossed her mind that she could have been the reason, but then again, why would she be the reason to disturb any emotions in him? She may have made a mess of his life, but she hadn't messed with his emotions. Not that she was directly aware of any way. The tension seemed to grow, however, until he seemed to be sick of it as well and left, making her look up with her eyes in slight curiosity. What was up with him? Her gaze shifted to Ellie who shrugged slightly, answering her question without having to ask it. It was obvious that he wasn't feeling okay and she wanted to know why, Ellie wasn't that blind. "He was fine during our previous hour.." Ellie added to the shrug, making Jay question things even more. "Hm," she hummed back in response, being far more in thought about it than she wanted to be. School was meant to be a distraction, not another reason for her to feel bad. Especially since it came down to Skyler again. She didn't blame him for anything, there was no reason to, but she did find herself bringing back strings attached to him from questions she asked herself. She couldn't blame an innocent boy, the only one she could blame for her troubles was herself. So what she didn't understand was her feeling of guilt towards him, her attachment to the boy wasn't significant, not more than she had with Ellie. But he did move her, as he was someone that asked questions that were actually serious and proper, played in well rather than the outbursts Ellie gave. So then, what was her guilt about? Him feeling bad now didn't have anything to do with her now, did it? She waved the feeling of guilt away and pushed her thoughts aside, trying to focus on her assignment again. Time clocked away slightly longer than she seemed was normal for him to be away, but she had already given herself the answer; He wasn't feeling well. Her gaze shifted to the window and surely enough she saw him sitting outside, confirming what she had answered herself in the first place. At least he was conscious, she figured, for all she knew he could've passed out in the boys' bathroom. If he felt physically ill either way, but that wasn't her guess. It didnt occur to her to go outside, instead she figured it was better for him to stay alone for a moment, it would be what she wanted and she figured he would like a moment to breathe alone as well. Her eyes averted from the window again to the paper in front of her, writing down again what she was busy with in the first place.
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Aug 22, 2017 1:26:09 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 1:26:09 GMT
Skyler
He closed his eyes once he sat and made himself as comfortable as possible, eventually laying down to how he thought was fit to at least get rid of the headache a bit. If the headache would go, the nausea would leave too, so that was really the only option he had at this point. It took some time for him to calm down, to clear his mind and just keep it blank for as long as possible without any single thought popping in. It took longer than it should, and he wasn't completely pleased with it but he took it for granted as he felt a huge wait lift off of his shoulders and his chest once he really had his mind clear. It was no use having ten thousands of questions at the same time running through his head, one by one should be a better idea, and pushing away would only cause trouble later on. So he began bringing up questions one by one, answering them out loud if he knew the answer to it, and explaining why he asked that question when he didn't know the answer. And it eventually came down to one last question. Why do I care as much as I do and why do I let it affect me? He opened his eyes at that question, staring at the sky and letting the breath escape that he hadn't realized he was holding. "I don't know," he gave as an answer. He just didn't know, he couldn't give a long ass explanation to it, since it was no use. Well, at least it were few questions that still lingered, keeping his mind clear. Now, he had to build himself up again, getting his earlier self back up, smiling like he should be, acting like he should be. When he finally felt like he was feeling better, having had the time to get his shit together he got up again, happy that the headache had gone down and the nausea was gone, hopefully bringing more color to his skin again. He walked back inside, going to the classroom he had stepped out of earlier. He had been gone for about twenty-five minutes, maybe half an hour, he didn't know exactly, he hadn't brought his phone so he didn't know how much time had passed, what he did know is that class wasn't over yet since he hadn't heard the bell ring. He took a last deep breath when he stepped inside the classroom again and apologized at the teacher for taking so long. He walked back over to his seat and looked at Ellie that now asked if he was fine, making him smile brightly again and nodded. "I'm fine," he said with that smile before he turned back to his notebook, not having done anything at all for the assignment they had gotten, and for the remaining time, it was no use if he started working on it now, so he'd just keep it for at home since it wasn't a thing that needed to be finished soon. He felt a lot better after being outside for a bit, getting everything off his mind for now until next time everything and new things would pop up again, but he had always managed fine, but today he was just... off.
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Aug 22, 2017 1:48:02 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 22, 2017 1:48:02 GMT
Jay
It had taken a while for him to return, but she was quick to hear footsteps near their classroom, so she looked up and was slightly relieved when she saw it was him, looking better than he did before. And the strange vibe was gone too, but that made her question whether he was actually fine or not. Then again, everyone had their bad days, so she didn't look into it too much and went back to what she was doing once again. Ellie seemed quick to actually asked about it, but the way he answered said enough. At least to her, the small phrase he spoke didn't match the smile on his face. Surely he looked alright and he definitely didn't give off some weird tension, but she overall didn't have a good relationship with the words 'i'm fine,' it sounded fake to her. Perhaps since it was such a common answer, for her but also for many, many others. A simple way of saying that things weren't actually fine, but they would be and should be left alone by whoever asked. Then again, that was what she thought of it and Skyler could think differently. He probably did, she figured. He didn't catch her as the type to be like that. Five minutes left of class, so she closed her books and put everything away, searching through the heavy bag for something to drink and finding an energy drink, exactly what she needed. Perhaps it would help her sober up slightly as well. She wasn't drunk, but surely she had drunk enough to feel it influencing her. Which wasn't strange, she drank on an empty stomach and drank pure. A small sigh left her lips and she opened up the can, taking a few sips before putting it on the desk and searching for her phone in her bag, but ending up finding it in her pocket. She looked at the messages, not bothering to answer any of the dozens of messages she had got and put her phone in her bag as well. Five minutes passed by slowly, she savoured her drink until the last minute of it and then threw it back so she could throw the can away in the bin. She lifted up her bag and threw it over her shoulder, walking to the next class behind a group of early birds that had sprinted out of class since now they had an easy subject where the teacher had given up on the group that ran forward and therefore they didn't have to do anything, so they wanted to make sure they had good spots to do exactly nothing. Her eyes were glued to the floor and her feet every now and then, watching how her footsteps were smaller than they were before, noticing the change because even with her tiny legs, she took long strides. She had a confident walk, steady and with an attitude that only she carried. But now she felt like nothing, she felt terrible because of that, on top of what she already was busy with in mind and heart. This wasn't her, Jay was someone who walked with her chin up, eyes that could kill, outfit and make-up on point and her words laid ready for anyone who tried to mess with her. Someone bumped into her, causing her to move back slightly, locking gazes from the corner of her eyes and then moving further again, huffing softly. That was all she felt like bringing out, it wasn't worth an attitude. It never was, but had it happened two months ago she knew it'd be a far more vicious gaze. It felt like she had lost herself in trying to find solutions for the problems around her, but perhaps that was avoiding the actual problem. The thought of her being a sad little girl disgusted her, she didn't have time to be depressed or feel sorry for herself and yet she was having suicidal thoughts, it was ironic. Once she arrived at their next class she sat down next to the window, as always and grabbed her things, pulling her legs up and folding them indian style. Her gaze dropped on her hands for a moment when she wanted to grab something from her pencil case, making her aware of how boney her fingers looked. They already had been slender and slim, dainty and feminine. But now they just looked like skin and bones, with two rings on her right hand and one on her left. Her nails chipped with nail polish and yet long, but weaker than they normally were. Once again she felt disgusted, shaking her head and grabbing the pen she searched for in the first place, rather than the rude thoughts she got instead.
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Aug 22, 2017 14:35:57 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 14:35:57 GMT
Skyler
He was bound to listening to Ellie again, responding more and like he usually would do than he had done earlier, keeping him distracted from his thoughts. He was pretty sure that Jay had noticed his uneasiness that was hanging around him earlier, and if she came in a state like that to school, it was probably to get her mind off of things rather than having new distractions around her, so he better acted like his usual self, like when he first arrived here. When class was over he calmly packed his stuff and put his bag onto his back, looking at Ellie and Jay, waiting for them to walk out first before he followed them out. He didn't care if they had to do anything at the next class, even if they had something it'd be too easy and he wouldn't even want to start on it, which was a growing problem lately. As he was walking behind the two he noticed the change in Jay's walk as well, he didn't know what had happened for her to become like this, and he didn't know what was going around in her mind, but it sure was weighing her down. He shook his head as he was thinking too much again, having new questions come up who he just pushed away now. He had to act normal, he could do the thinking at home, he didn't need that right now. When they arrived at their next class he calmly walked to his usual seat which was pretty much always next to Ellie and desk before Jay. That's what the whole class got used to at least, since they always tried to keep those seats free anyway. He looked around a bit and saw people chatting with each other, most of their class were befriend with one another, which wasn't strange at all, but the three of them fell out pretty much. Ellie didn't care, Jay wanted it that way, and he had serious doubts that he would want to befriend the morons in the class they were in, so it should be fine right? He usually made friends with everyone quickly, but this class just didn't feel right, they all turned against Jay, so maybe that was the reason he didn't like them. He groaned softly and ruffled his hair to get his thoughts straight again, always involving Jay in thins like these were no use, it had nothing to do with her, period.
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Aug 22, 2017 15:10:20 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 22, 2017 15:10:20 GMT
Jay
It was difficult to be in class and not have to do anything, it wasn't what she signed up for today. She needed to do something, get her mind off things she was busy with pretty much 24/7. Usually when they had this class she would focus on exactly that, do research for her own profit, but right now she didn't have anything to do at all. It almost became a study class, somewhere you could either do nothing or do homework you didn't want to have to do at home. But her homework was done so far and the rest of the things didn't strike her as important to make. It wasn't graded, so why the effort? Her eyes drifted off from the pen she was holding and then at the books she had brought out of her bag. It was no use to start working on that, she already was far ahead of the subject when she did have time and motivation to put work into it. So now, she didn't need to worry about that at all. What then? A small sigh escaped her lips and she put her books away, resting her arms on the desk and her head on top of that, holding the pen between her fingers and swirling it between her fingers, her gaze fixed on that since it was the most interesting thing happening right now. How lifeless she felt, useless and hopeless. It was like a fire had been burned out within her. She rolled her eyes at her own intrusive thoughts, burying her the side of her face more in her arm and stopping the pen halfway between her last three fingers, so it balanced on top of her ring finger. A bummer, that was what this day was. Nothing exciting, nothing to help her get out of her downward spiral. She could've stayed at home and had the same effect, just in less clothing and no make-up, no people around her either.
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Aug 22, 2017 17:17:40 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 17:17:40 GMT
Skyler
Since he still had to do his assignment from the previous class he just went to do that instead of lazing around, it would keep his thought at bay, if he managed to concentrate of course. So as he was doing that he was also paying attention to the class and everything around him going on, but there wasn't much, it was more or less people talking to eachother in their usual groups and that was all there was to it. He didn't hear much activity behind him either, so he guessed Jay also didn't have anything to do at this point. The rest of the day seemed to progress slow, nothing happened further more, Ellie was as talkative as ever, Jay hadn't come up with anything either and there hadn't been much talking going on towards her either since he didn't know what to say. He could've started about how he had auditioned for some companies, but where would that conversation lead to? It would stop right after, he was pretty sure of that since she didn't seem in a talking mood, not that she ever really was, but today was just a bad day it seemed, not only for her. Somewhere in the last class he had turned around to look at Jay and tilted his head slightly. "Do you have anywhere urgent to go after school?" He then asked. She seemed full of thoughts herself, and maybe if he could at least distract her a bit from those thoughts if they would go somewhere. He hadn't thought out what he wanted to go do if she would say yes, maybe it was just his subconscious kicking in and telling him she would most likely say that she didn't want to and that's why he hadn't thought about what they could do. He looked at her, waiting for her answer to see if she was free or not and then asking her if she wanted to go out.. Well not out as in loving way, but out as in.. just out between friends, or whatever they were, to get his mind clear and maybe help her out of it too, he could only try. It was pretty much the only thing he could do to help her in some way..
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Halo
Aug 22, 2017 18:29:24 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 22, 2017 18:29:24 GMT
Jay
During their last class she tried to work on the homework they had got, but by then her concentration was beyond the point of saving, so she had given up on it and just wrote whatever came to mind. Little sentences in different languages, anything apart from English it seemed. It helped to keep her busy but it wasn't exactly doing something great either, at least she wasn't drowning herself in her thoughts in a public place. She looked up abruptly when Skyler spoke up to her, blinking a few times since she had to make some effort to make her eyes focus. Probably from being so tired, she guessed. "Ah.." She then worded, furrowing her eyebrows slightly as she tried to think of something. Did she have anything urgent? Why did he ask anyway? "I can't really think of anything urgent, no," she said. Apart from isolating herself and crawling back behind the computer with a bottle to work further on everything she was handling underground. But that wasn't exactly urgent, she had it under control well enough now that she wouldn't call it urgent, but isolating herself was. It kept people safe, she noticed. But then again, if he would ask to hang out, she couldn't exactly turn him down either after her answer. It wasn't that she wanted to turn such an offer down because she didn't like him or Ellie as a person, but she just couldn't get it over her heart to be seen in public with him, where underground people laid in shadows, lurking and waiting for her to slip up or for the person she was with to be alone. Analyzing, finding their homes, she didn't want to risk that. The thoughts made her bite the inside of her cheek, playing with the pen between her fingers. "Why do you ask?" She asked him, looking up with her eyes again, somewhat curious. That she couldn't deny, it wasn't something that happened often, that someone asked her if she had anything to do after school. Ellie hadn't even tried ask her since she always was so unavailable for her. So it did bring up curiosity, but also a lot of worries.
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Halo
Aug 22, 2017 19:06:37 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 19:06:37 GMT
Skyler
She seemed surprised by his question, which was normal as he had been silent for a while now and she probably hadn't expected someone to talk to her all of a sudden when she was lost in thoughts it seemed. Well not that exactly but she wasn't really with her thoughts in the classroom so. He waited calmly and smiled when she said that she hadn't anything urgent to do after school. Great, now what? What should he ask now? They could... go for coffee? He didn't think a walk would do much, and he wouldn't know where to.. Watch a movie? That'd be rather awkward wouldn't it? He didn't exactly know any of her interests since he didn't know much over all. So when she eventually asked him why he had asked her that question, he had to think about something quickly. Rather than thinking on a place to go to he thought about why she looked so tense all of a sudden. Did she already know what he was going to ask? Or was she just afraid of turning him down? "Do you want to hangout after school? Getting coffee or something.. I didn't really think it through," he said with a soft chuckle, keeping up his cheerfulness for a bit now. He had managed fine since he had gone outside for a bit, so he could keep that going for the rest of the day, so he thought. "Only if you want to though, it doesn't matter if you don't feel up for it." He then said as that would make it easier if she did want to turn down his offer.
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Halo
Aug 22, 2017 19:28:25 GMT
Post by pieceofmind on Aug 22, 2017 19:28:25 GMT
Jay
He seemed to be thinking about his words just as much as she was, making her wonder why he had asked such a thing in the first place. When he continued to ask something, she didn't exactly know how to respond, especially when he added that it didn't matter. It did matter, she knew it did matter because no one liked to be turned down and it'd be rude if she turned him down. It wasn't unfamiliar for her to be rude, especially when Davor was doing his thing. He really didn't care for anyone, he was the definition of rude. But she was different in that and it annoyed her in moments like these because she didn't know how to respond. At on side it wouldn't hurt to actually try and be social for once, but she couldn't be social, not with her lifestyle. She was breaking herself in two over his question, especially because she knew he wasn't doing well either. A mask didn't mean anything to her, she could see right through those since she had learned all the tricks herself too. And reading profiles and people's expressions was part of what kept her alive, so it was only logical that she was able to analyze someone within seconds. She started playing with her rings, being somewhat nervous. Her mind was going rapidly, thinking of a proper answer. It didn't exactly take long for her to answer his question, in fact, it was quicker than she expected herself. To her it had felt like she waited minutes to respond. "Ah.. I could go for some coffee, yeah. Sounds good," she spoke, nodding calmly. It slightly surprised her that she had agreed to him, since it more so didn't happen because she agreed on it in her mind, her mind was still busy deciding whether this was gonna turn out bad, really bad or extremely bad. But her lips had moved before her thoughts were made up. So now she was stuck with her answer. It was fine, she told herself. As long as she just kept an eye out, nothing would happen. Things had been under control now, so she could try and relax for once too. After almost twenty years, wasn't it time that she started being more social? She tried to convince herself that way, but it didn't exactly work. All she could focus on were the red flags, but those she tried to ignore as well.
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Halo
Aug 22, 2017 20:30:45 GMT
Post by Sara Gather on Aug 22, 2017 20:30:45 GMT
Skyler
He Calmly awaited her answer as he was nervous himself if she would turn it down or not, and he was actually surprised when she answered that she agreed to it and hadn't even thought too long about her answer. He for sure had thought she would turn him down since she wasn't really into socializing and always wanted to keep people away from her and not interfere with her life. Maybe he really was stubborn.. He kinda knew how she was put together, and yet he kept on trying since he really wanted to get to know her one way or another. He didn't need her whole life story, and the only thing that he now wanted to do was actually knowing how she was doing and asking if he could do something to help her in any way possible, since it really sucked to see her like that. "Okay, great," he said with a smile to her. He looked over at Ellie who seemed just as surprised and tilted his head slightly as to ask if she wanted to come too, but she shook her head and smiled. "I have an appointment after school so I can't," she said smiling, not letting go what the appointment was for or why she had to go to, but he didn't think anything bad of it. He was happy Jay had agreed to come with him, now it was the thing he had to think about how he wanted to talk to her and what he really wanted to say, if there was going to be talking at least. Surely they wouldn't just go for coffee and don't utter a word to each other, that'd be a joke.. He chuckled at the thought himself, it would be kinda sad too actually. So now he could only wait for school to end, and when he looked up at the clock, it wouldn't take too long anymore. The remaining time seemed to move faster than the whole day did earlier, being glad when school was finally over. He stood up and put all of his stuff away, looking at Jay and waiting for her now to be ready to go. Ellie had already moved ahead since she didn't want to be late for the appointment she had, whatever it might be.
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