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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 28, 2015 20:48:46 GMT
Ryota
He chuckled when he grabbed his throat. Actually you are. Can you speak out of her mind when you're not in her body? Can you be touched when you're not in her body? Sure you can grab things and ouch things, but people just walk right into you without even knowing, he felt Sachiko grabbing his shoulder to help him since he otherwise got hit against the wall. He looked at Sachiko standing in front of him now and then looked at Yuuma again. I may not know what went on between you two, but I do feel what your feelings are since I can see and feel them myself. And your thoughts are enough to know things. Stop shuting other people out or pushing them away because you're just making her hate you. I know enough about this to see where this is going and I will not let it go that way because that's just pathetic, He didn't back down this time. He didn't care about his words anymore, how they may hurt, he wanted this little war to end.
Tetsuya
After a few hours he woke up and looked at Ryu next to him. It felt surreal. Was this happening? He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes and tried to get out of Ryu's arms to stand up for a moment. His legs felt heavy because of his sleeping position, but he wasn't planning on leaving the room. He just walked to the bathroom to wash his face a bit and sat on the edge of the bathtub for a few moments. How was this going to evolve? He wasn't sure on how things would go on between him and Ryu. Ryu didn't seem too sure if they'd stay like this, since he didn't react on his words of not leaving him, it bothered him a bit, but he understood. They couldn't be sure about staying together, and it was rather fast to think like that, since they weren't even a day together.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 28, 2015 21:15:37 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
He looked at Ryota and chuckled softly, shaking his head. He had a point, yet at the same time he didn't. "He has a body," Sachiko whispered and looked over her shoulder to shake her head slightly whilst looking at Ryota, she then looked at the floor. I mean, sure, my body hasn't grown with me and I can't really function without Sachiko, but do not mistake how things are. I am connected to her, but I have a body of my own, Ryota. Why is it pathetic, huh? Have you been there throughout our lives? Have you seen the things we went through? I doubt it. Sachiko frowned and shook her head slightly. "That's irrelevant, Yuuma. Stop this madness, I mean it." She whispered, looking at him. Why? It doesn't matter anymore. Nothing matters, all is lost anyway but superman behind you is trying to save whatever is left behind and we both know that the only thing left behind is your body that is not giving up on you when you try so desperately to die. He whispered, his eyes darker than normal as he looked at her. He then pushed her out of the way to look at Ryota. You claim to hear our thoughts and feel what we feel, but do you knowledge it as well? Do you realise that she is suicidal and I'm going down the same road? Whether we become best fucking friends or not, it won't matter cause it won't just fix things! I'm pushing people away cause people keep screwing us over! How much do you really fucking care?! All you care about is the fact that our stupid thoughts and feelings keep overwhelming you cause you can't control your shit!
Ryu
He woke up shortly after, extremely drowsy but well rested. So he stretched out and groaned a bit, his muscles still a bit sore. He then looked around with slightly opened eyes since he missed Tetsu, yet their beds stood together so what happened yesterday was real.. He put his head back on the pillow and closed his eyes, that was quite a roller coaster of a day and now he was awake for a few minutes, he felt tired, it hit him that he just felt drained of the day before. But he didn't mind. Instead, he sighed softly since opening his mouth to speak was an extremely hard thing to do when he just had woken up, so he complained in thought. "Tetsu? Where are ya?"
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 28, 2015 21:33:38 GMT
Ryota
He looked at Sachiko and then back at Yuuma. "Why doesn't he use it then? If he has one, then do what you have to do with a body. Live." He said and put his hand in his pockets whilst looking at them both. He knew most of the stuff Yuuma said already, since he told him earlier. "Everything you say doesn't make any sense to me. I'm not doing this to shut you two up. I'm not doing this for my own fucking sake. Now you are talking like you know everything about me, like I'm selfish. Can you know what I feel? Can you think what I think? I don't know about you, but you're talking bullshit now. I want to make an end to this for Sachiko's sake. Everything you do and everyone you push away makes her feel lonely and weak. I get that 'not living' is frustrating for you, but you could at least support her. You're twins for fuck's sake." If he could punch Yuuma, he would've done it multiple times. He was sick of hearing all this.
Tetsuya
He looked at himself in the mirror when he stood up again and stayed a few moments like that, thinking about later. Sometimes he turned his gaze away with bad thouhts, but he recovered himself again and looked at the door when he heard movement and eventualy the sound of Ryu's voice. "I'm in the bathroom," He then said and opened the door a bit to look at Ryu who had just woken up. "Did I wake you? I'm sorry about that," he apologized and went back into the bathroom to sit on the side of the tub, not knowing what to do.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 28, 2015 22:07:44 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
My body is deceased. I am stillborn, you dumbfuck, I can't bring something to life that's born dead, I don't have such fucking superpowers. He groaned and shook his head as he rubbed his face and sat down, knowing they'd be here for a while. He tried to shut out the complaining but it was a bit hard, so then he looked up. "You at least know what it's like to be alive. To live strong or weak in moments. To be cherished. I never got to experience such a thing. I'm fucking made bitter because I got to put up with only the bad things. I tried to protect her from all the bad things that kept happening to her but they kept fucking pushing and pulling us down like we were some fucking garbage![/i] He yelled again, tears forming in both their eyes. Only Yuuma looked angry whilst also looking at Ryota. Sachiko, however, looked at the floor with a pained expression. I experienced the same things she has, only differently. I sometimes would throw myself out in order to protect her but.. It never made it better. He mumbled and shrugged.
Ryu
He looked up when he heard some movements, aknowledging it was Tetsu so he sighed softly in relief and nodded slightly to his words. "Alright. Come back to bed though, it's chilly," he complained, chuckling softly.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 28, 2015 22:23:44 GMT
Ryota
He sighed. "Then you should use had and not has. But I wonder if it would be any different from now anyway." he softly said and leaned against the wall now. He was tired, and this made everything worse eventually, it annoyed him. "Cherished? By who? For how long? Why? When? I can't recall being cherished. I can't recall feeling alive anyway, well yeah, when I get hurt. Then I knew that I was alive." he said and looked at both of them. "Does garbage live? Does it move? Does it have a thought of his own? I don't think so," he said and reached out to Sachiko to wipe her tears away. Yuuma seemed to have calmed down by hearing the mumbling. "It's no use to fight a battle inside of your mind. It'll make everything worse, I can say that much. Everything you two say to me makes me understand a bit more everytime."
Tetsuya
He heard Ryu's words and smiled slightly. "I'll be there in a sec," he refreshed himself a bit and then walked to the bed and laid down next to Ryu again. "That last thing is a lie though. As if you get cold," he said and gave him a peck on his cheek. He put an arm around him and laid his face in ryu's neck. "Happy now?" He asked softly and stroke with his fingers over his back.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 29, 2015 6:13:30 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
Sachiko looked away when her tears got wiped off of her cheeks. She frowned more at his words and shook her head slightly, not quite understanding what he meant. Yuuma frowned in confusion as well. How do you fight it then? If one of us would go to a psychiatrist they'd throw us into a hospital for the mentally ill. He mumbled, scratching his temple. "And the only other option is to die," Sachiko whispered softly, almost so soft that it wasn't even to be heard. They both didn't understand Ryota's words completely, but that was the only rational thing that came to their minds. However, Yuuma had his fists clenched. He was trembling with anger and hatred, but also fear as he heard Sachiko's words. Now that he wasn't in a state of rage, his thoughts weren't as oblivious and disgustingly mean anymore. He still held his grudges against his sister, for being weak, for being the person she is and what not. But to hear her say that the only option left was to die, now that he was mostly sane, pained him. He rubbed his eyes and sighed, shaking his head.
Ryu
"Hey, I get cold," he complained against him and held him close, smirking half as he buried his face in Tetsu's hair. "Very," he mumbled and sighed out softly, stroking through his hair. "What were you doing in there for so long?" He then asked quietly. "Obviously not taking a dump cause I didn't hear a flush," he joked, but actually was serious in a way.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 29, 2015 6:39:19 GMT
Ryota
He looked at both, the seemed so helpless right now. By that question he just smiled. "My fight is different then yours. You have eachother to fight against it, I was alone. I never said anything about a psychiatrist, that's the worst." he said and looked at Sachiko again. "Only option? Dying is the unimportant option. There's so much more to do and to see, so much good things and you want to die with the bad things? If you want it to be that way, okay. I don't need to know everything about your lives, I know already that many things have gone wrong with both of you." he said and looked at Yuuma again. He didn't know what to say anymore to them, he had enough words to spit out, but he couldn't form any sentences.
Tetsuya
He smiled slightly and looked up at him a bit. He then closed his eyes again and stayed close to Ryu for his warmth. "Maybe I did but didn't flush the toilet," he said on that and shrugged softly. "I was just thinking about things," he then answered and grabbed his shirt in his fingers. "Nothing to be worried about, okay?" he looked up at Ryu and gave him a kiss on his jawline.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 29, 2015 6:50:58 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
She fiddled with her fingers and shrugged slightly, keeping her gaze locked on the floor as she didn't dare to look Ryota nor Yuuma in the eye. It did feel like one of the only options, recovery was another but how did she recover from what was still with her? She never knew if Yuuma would keep acting like this, she was afraid he would. Yuuma looked at Ryota, his eyes glassy. "We're not the only ones to have had it tough," Sachiko whispered, to which Yuuma looked up to her, but then back at Ryota. He was still sitting on the floor so he had to look up quite a bit. She's right. We know you have had it tough too, as you've mentioned in between already. But you seem to have found a purpose for living; getting people out of this place. But what's ours? We can't seem to find it. Especially here it seems to be impossible to find it. I tried not to give in to all the words that have ever been said to us, man. But it hit me that they were right whilst I tried so hard to prove them wrong.
Ryu
"That's gross, Tetsu," he chuckled and stroked through his hair, closing his eyes as he snuggled his face more in his hair. He opened his eyes slightly when Tetsuya moved to kiss his jawline, and looked at him when he had done so. "Saying that it's nothing to worry about exactly makes me worry though."
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 29, 2015 7:14:45 GMT
Ryota
He leaned against the wall again and looked back at Sachiko when she said something and shrugged. "It's not like I can compare my life to yours, so I don't think I can say that my life was really though in your opinion," he said and looked at Yuuma. "You'll find it eventually. It took me long enough to find it. And I can't believe that everything they said was right about you two. That's impossible." he walked over to Sachiko and pulled her in his arms and then looked at Yuuma. "I'm sure you will find it, and I will get you out of this hell hole. And if you can't go back to your parents, go to my place, it's empty anyway," he shrugged and looked at them both.
Tetsuya
He laughed softly and looked him in the eye after the kiss. "Ryu, it's nothing. It were just mere thoughts, if something were wrong #2 would've noticed," he said and looked at the puppy that was sleeping quietly. "Now hush," he pushed his lips on Ryu's for a few seconds an then looked him in the eye again. "Don't be a 'I want to know it all', that's creepy and overprotective," he poked him in his side and smiled innocently.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 29, 2015 7:31:19 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
She stood frozen still in his arms, her gaze locked on the floor as she didn't really know what to do at the moment. Eventually she carefully wrapped her arms around one of his, as he was standing more towards her side, so she was only covered by half of his body. Softly she sighed and closed her eyes, Yuuma looking at them with almost hollow eyes as numbness struck him. Why should we be at your place when we're minors and you're not there? Yuuma asked, looking away as he rubbed his eyes. Sachiko rested the side of her head against Ryota's chest, finding slight comfort which made her calm down a bit. My purpose is to protect her. But I fail massively in doing so cause I've turned bitter myself. I realise it. I just can't change it. And her purpose is to be happy and live life, but she failed in doing so as well cause people kept kicking her down. The worst thing is that our parents kicked her down.. Eventually Yuuma looked up to Ryota to continue his words. You're the first person she has allowed to keep touching her. To hug her or anything. It has been years since that happened.
Ryu
"Okay, okay, okay," he chuckled and looked up to him. "I am creepy and overprotective though. I'm also very clingy when I want to be and I want to be that a lot cause you get all blushy and cute," he smirked and pecked his lips softly as he held him close again.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 29, 2015 7:55:22 GMT
Ryota
He looked at Sachiko who was frozen for a few moments and he waited how she'd react. When she wrapped her arms around his he held her softly and looked at yuuma. "I don't know. I'm a minor too, so that's no excuse. And when I'm not there you can do whatever you want. It's not like I have precious things there anyway," he said and felt that Sachiko calmed down a bit. "Why don't we work on the bitterness of you then. If that would fade away, or you can control it, you can protect Sachiko to get back to your purpose, and if that succeeds I think Sachiko would slowly get happy. It could take years, sure, but isn't it worth a try if it makes your lives easier? Even if you can't change it, you can try and find another way." at the last words of Yuuma he looked at Sachiko in his arms and felt actually happy that it was like that. "I'm glad about that then."
Tetsuya
He looked him n the eyes and smiled a bit. "I'm not always blushy, I only blushed once," he said and closed his eyes when he got a little kiss and was then pulled close again. He sighed softly and burried his face in Ryu's neck. He didn't want this moment to end, it was peacefull being like this with him. He never saw himself in a relationship with a man though, nor with a woman, he wasn't interested in both earlier. But Ryu changed that
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 29, 2015 8:17:41 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
He shrugged slightly and looked at the wall for a moment as he rubbed one of his eyes. "I wouldn't want to live in someone's house without the owner of it being there." Sachiko whispered very quietly, keeping her eyes closed as she hid her face a bit in his chest, feeling exhausted and drained from everything that had happened today. Yuuma shrugged slightly once again. I think it's best, yes. But I doubt if it'll help her enough to get her out of the hell she is in.
Ryu "You blushed more than once," he mumbled and chuckled, stroking through his hair again as he sighed softly and closed his eyes once again, relaxing more with each passing minute. It'd be a struggle to get out of bed when he was this comfy with Tetsu in his arms.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 29, 2015 8:30:36 GMT
Ryota
He looked at Sachiko when she said something about the house and chuckled softly. "You're to kind about that though." he said and held her in his arms, calming her down and keeping her up since she seemed exhausted. He'd bring her back to her room in a few moments. He then looked at Yuuma again and shrugged. "It's worth a try, I think. We won't know if we don't try," he said and lifted Sachiko in his arms to bring her back to bed. "People are getting annoyed of me talking in the hallway," he muttered when he heard the thoughts of he people in the rooms where they were talking. "I'll bring you back to bed since you look like you'l faint any moment,"
Tetsuya
"Okay but it was only one day, so it's one time," he said and enjoyed te feeling of being loved. Not that he was hated or anything, he was loved by many people, but this was different. He yawned softly and pulled the blankets back over him, since it was getting chilly in the room again. But he had Ryu as a personal heater, so he didn't complain.
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Post by Mary-Anne Rogers on Sept 29, 2015 8:37:38 GMT
Sachiko/Yuuma
He looked up when Ryota spoke again and then looked around to examine if people were coming. But it seemed they only were annoyed, not bothering to do something about it. He had nodded slightly to Ryota's words. Perhaps it was worth the try. Sachiko wrapped her arms around his neck, though it was loosely since she was just too tired. Her head rested against him again whilst she kept her eyes closed. She felt bad for keeping him up like this, yet she was glad he was here, helping them and comforting them both.
Ryu He raised an eyebrow and chuckled. "Sure, Tetsu," he spoke softly and stroked through his hair again. He pulled him closer when Kuroko had covered himself with the sheets and placed a few kisses in his neck.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 29, 2015 9:01:53 GMT
Ryota
He began to walk down the hallway and up the stairs, quietly and softly so he didn't bother the people sleeping downstairs and he didn't annoy Sachiko with his movements. He walked to her room and opened the door carefully and laid her down on the bed. He cleaned up the rooù a bit since ùost of the things were knocked over because Yuuma was at it today. "here you go," he said and laid the sheets over her. He then looked at Yuuma and stretched. "You're the one who has to start with it, so let me know when you want to try," he said and looked at Sachiko again.
Tetsuya
He laughed when he heard Ryu and let some small noices escape his throat when he was kissed in his neck. It was ticklish, so it made him chuckle softly, more like a heavy giggling. It was fine by him to be like this with him, all lovey dovey and stuff. "You let me make weird souncs," he said softly and poked in his side.
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