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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 1, 2017 7:33:30 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
She nodded slightly when they made the offer of going outside and chuckled softly, trying to get her eyes to look normal really was a task itself. Usually her make-up would mask how puffy her under eyes could get when she was tired or had cried, but with so little make up on, it was no use. He led the group outside, keeping his arm around Jayu and squeezing his shoulder for a moment when he seemed to get lost in thoughts. "I think we should have a one on one talk soon, you look like you've got a lot on your mind," he whispered as the girls didn't need to hear everything. Lusi would know what he meant when he saw them walk off or when G gave her a certain look. Sometimes it seemed best to have their separate talks, girls with girls and boys with boys. He knew not everything would be told, but he did want Jayu to be able to get things off his chest. They were all friends, not as close as for example he was with Lusi, but close enough to trust each other a bit. And as their leader G did want to know what was going on and what he could do to help. Especially now it would help get his mind off of things, that he wanted more than anything. Snow walked behind the guys, having an arm wrapped around Lusi and her eyes glued to the boys. She furrowed her eyebrows slightly, looking at Yongguk. His walk didn't seem as confident as it used to be, it seemed defeated. She shook her head slightly and yawned softly, hiding her mouth with her hand. Crying tired you out for sure. She tried to not focus on their leader as much, soon and she'd notice every little thing and he'd get mad for her worry. It was a possibility at least. So her gaze went to Jayu, but she couldn't take that either because she felt guilt written whenevwr she looked at him.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 1, 2017 17:09:44 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
Jayu shot up out of his thoughts when he felt a squeeze in his shoulder and he heard Yongguk's voice whispering near his ear, making him look at him for a moment and sigh softly. So far for not wanting to be obvious about how he felt, but he nodded either way. He didn't want to walk around with it much longer on his own, he knew that if he didn't tell someone of his members he'll soon enough break since he didn't have the chance to see Key every time something was on his mind again. "There's just.. a lot going on at this moment," he mumbled softly only for Yongguk to hear since he didn't want to burden the girls with it right now. He knew that Lusi had a hard time of herself, maybe because it brought back memories of her own parents' funeral and that wasn't really a great thing to think back to. Lusi calmly walked outside, keeping an arm around Snow as she looked around slightly and at the guys in front of them. She also noticed that Jayu seemed a bit off again since a while, but she couldn't lay her finger on what exactly the problem was, but she was sure Yongguk would get it out of him one way or another. She looked back at Snow when she heard her yawn and chuckled slightly. "Aish, you should sleep more and longer at night, I know you were still awake when I went to bed. What was it? Nervous?" She then asked Snow as she had noticed that the youngster didn't have much sleep that night. And then she thought back at when she was acting pretty strange at SM, about the haunted studio and all, she surely had acted somewhat different when Jayu had come to stand with them.. Did it have something to do with it?
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 1, 2017 17:17:13 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
He walked up to some benches that stood outside, nodding slightly to what Jayu said. "Just know that things will be okay in time and you can trust me but also the others with anything that's on your heart. We all have our baggage and secrets, but we will always help each other out. That's what a team is about," he whispered back and patted his shoulder softly before letting him go and stepping onto the bench to sit on the back of it. Snow looked up slightly surprised when Lusi spoke to her and chuckled softly. "I'll do my best, unnie. And I was nervous, this is the first funeral I've been to after all.. I also hope it's the last for a long, long while. No more dying, okay? We're gonna celebrate life now," she whispered with a pout and looked at Yongguk when he sat down, jogging up to him to push him, but he already had seen it coming and grabbed her hands. "Yahh~ Not when I'm wearing my good suit," he laughed softly, making her smirk. She nodded and sat down on the end of the bench, looking at the other members. "It's good to be with you guys again, you guys really are people I know I can count on," Yongguk then said, smirking half and shrugging slightly. "The team I was blessed with that others could only dream of," he said, making Snow groan. "Aigoo, you're so deep and sentimental," she complained but laughed softly.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 1, 2017 18:29:55 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
He looked at Yongguk when he spoke to him again and nodded slightly. "I know, thanks," he said softly with a small smile and took a deep breath when he let go of him, getting his mind straight for a moment so he could hang on a little longer. He was sure that if he was going to spill everything to Yongguk that he'd cry again, and he wasn't in the mood for that right now. Besides, he didn't want to bother Yongguk too much now, not after the funeral and the ceremony and all that he already had to endure today. He also calmly sat onto the bench, normal though since he didn't want to risk falling if the maknae had fantastic ideas to make one of them fall. Lusi chuckled when Snow said she'd do her best to sleep more and nodded to her words. "You know you can't really stop people from dying though, but I don't have people that are old enough in my family, so it won't be from my side if someone died," she said softly with a chuckle and let go of her when she ran towards Yongguk to push him but failed miserably. She shook her head slightly and joined the other members to sit down too and rest her head onto G's knee. She closed her eyes for a few seconds before she looked up at him again when he said something about the group, smiling at him. "Aww, you're so sweet. You're not one to say cheesy things though, it makes you seem... I'm not going to say it," she said with a chuckle and closed her eyes again. "And of course you can count on us, that's what we're in a team for, right? If we wouldn't be able to count on eachother, what would be the use?" She asked softly, making Jayu glance away slightly since he felt bad for not telling his members a few things. He trusted them, he really did, but he was afraid he would receive a reaction he rather didn't have, and that was the thing that withheld him from telling them. "Yah Jayu, when are you going to spill the reason that you and Snow were so secretive about?" Lusi than dropped as she glanced at him from the side of her eyes. "Ahh noona, I said when Yongguk hyung came back to the dorm," Jayu complained, making Lusi pout and look at Yongguk. "See, they're being mean to me," she said while pouting and punched Jayu's shoulder softly.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 6, 2017 16:29:51 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
"Aish, Lusi-ah. You're really pushing it on with the cute thing, aren't you?" He sighed and chuckled a bit, shaking his head. "You know well enough there are plenty of groups out there that will not look twice at each other but still do good on stage together," he mentioned, since he had seen it happen. Though, those groups usually didn't last long and he did hope that their group would last a while. He liked being in a co-ed group, now that the idea really had warmed up to him. But he was starting to doubt their choice of agency, perhaps they all would've been better off at a different agency, but then they wouldn't have been with each other and this seemed so logical and normal to him now. He looked up to Jayu and Snow with slightly raised eyebrows, since he got curious too as it had been a while that it had been mentioned and now it seemed like the secret was finally going to be spilled. "Aish, Jayu, I'm probably going back with you guys when you all leave so it's no use. You're going to spend the time here too so why wait?" He argued, rolling his eyes at Lusi. "And I thought you were the one who could keep them under control," he said, glancing at her with a slightly innocent smile playing on his lips. "You are both so wrong, we just go for whatever is in our favour," Snow then mentioned out of the blue, making Yongguk laugh softly. "That's smart, I'll admit," he nodded, making her smirk proudly. "But I think it's not that bad to show them our little secret, it's been forever and I really wanna see their reactions. Oppa did so good!" She patted Jayu's shoulder and pouted.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 6, 2017 17:47:12 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
"That's because you are when you don't notice it yourself, it's really hard not to say anything about it you know. Maybe you should try aegyo more often so it stays cringeworthy rather than your accidental cute moments," she said with a chuckle and fixed her hair for a bit when it didn't feel right. "Of course I know that, but they don't last long and it's no use putting them together in a group anyway. If I were to be put into a group with members I can't get along with and have to play out that I can, I wouldn't last a week." She mumbled when she pictured herself in that situation, shivering at the thought. She wasn't a difficult person, she got along with people very well and was quick to befriend people. As long as they were respectful towards her and didn't hate her for no reason, otherwise she wouldn't just keep it all peaceful. Jayu looked up and pouted when Yongguk also said that it was no use to hide it any longer because he was coming to the dorm with the when they would leave again. If he could choose, he wouldn't have ever gotten Snow to do this with him and it would be his little secret, but since she had been there, spying on him when he was recording another song of his own, he didn't think it through to this extent. Lusi looked at Yongguk and punched his knee hard, frowning. "Now everyone's being mean to me, how can I last in a group like this?" She said and crossed her arms over her chest. "Evil dongsaengs, evil chingu. Even my own sisters are evil," she said and sighed. "My life is so hard.." She chuckled shortly after and then looked back at Jayu when Snow also said to now just reveal it. "Aish.." Jayu mumbled when he had hoped for Snow to at least back him up in this situation. But well.. he couldn't hide it forever after all.. And since the song was all done.. "I wrote a song about two months after our debut, and since I don't trust my vocals I didn't want to sing it, and that's where Snow came in." He mumbled and looked down at his hands as he played with his own fingers a bit. "But it's really not that great, it's just something that popped up in my mind one day and I wanted to try it out.." He then said as he really wasn't confident in the song, thinking it would be too plain and boring to ever be used, or that it didn't even fit the group, since it wasn't really something that they were known for. He did have the song on his phone though, so he could listen to it, maybe thinking about a way to make it better, but he ran out of ideas, and he didn't want to force to much onto it, otherwise he'd feel like he'd make it worse.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 6, 2017 18:23:25 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
He rolled his eyes once more at her and held up his fingers to form a heart with them, sticking his tongue out before focusing back on the youngsters that were being somewhat secretive again. He yelped out and groaned at the sudden pain in his knee, grabbing the violated knee and bending forward for a moment. "I did not ask to get punched, yahh.." He sighed, rubbing his knee as he looked back at Lusi. "You're the real mean one here, bossing everyone around and punching your dear chingu!" He argued, pouting slightly since the hit, though not that hard, had been right on his knee so it did sting a bit. He looked at Jayu when he finally gave in and listened carefully, raising his eyebrows slightly when the truth came out. Snow smiled excitedly meanwhile and slapped Jayu when he talked down on himself. "It is really great! I made sure he sang too and he absolutely killed it! Yah, this oppa is so insecure about his skills and it's making me mad because now that I've recorded with him alone I could really tell the talent he has and it is absolutely amazing," she spoke excitedly, searching for her phone. "It's a known fact he's insecure about himself and his skills, but this dongsaeng is talented and has some great qualities to him," Yongguk spoke and messed with Jayu's hair. "Almost a year with us now too, can you guys imagine?" He chuckled, making Snow gasp. "It's almost been a year?" She asked absolutely shocked, making Yongguk nod. "Wow.. Time surely flies then," she mumbled, searching on her phone and then putting the song on when she found it. Already guarding her phone from Jayu since she wasn't sure if he'd try to take it down or not, so it was better to prevent.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 6, 2017 19:56:47 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
She chuckled when he formed a fingerheart and shook her head. "Who said you were dear?" She then said to him tilting her head. "Besides, you should be able to take a hit you big baby," she continued, but did rub his knee to make to pain go away a bit, since she didn't want him to be hurt due her, that wouldn't be a great plan at least. Jayu flinched when he got slapped by Snow and looked at her, surprised and embarrassed when she spoke up about how he was insecure. And he sure was, he wasn't going to deny since he was insecure about his skills and how it turned out and afraid how the others might find it. What he hadn't expected was for her to say that he really was talented, and at least something of that should be true since Snow had liked the song and had wanted to record it with him. He didn't like his vocals, like he had said the first day he had been here. He got in because of his face and because he sang an english song on his audition, little did he know that he would be thrown into a group just a few months after his audition. "Aish," he mumbled as their leader now spoke up about him and ruffled his hair, trying to get it good in some way again since now his hair got all messed up. Lusi chuckled as she looked at the other members and how Jayu seemed embarrassed now. That boy had so much talent that he wasn't even aware of that it was just painful to watch him having insecurities about himself. She hadn't heard him sing, only English songs but he didn't get vocals in their songs, since he was listed as a rapper, but now that Snow had said that she had made him sing some parts in his own song, she got curious. "Our debut anniversary is coming soon," Lusi then said as she thought back on the hardships they had endured during their trainee days and the months before their debut, how Jayu got dropped in at the last moment and how it had changed everything since they had to record everything anew. But she wouldn't want it any other way now. Jayu looked towards Snow when she put on the song that they had been secretive about, not trying to do anything since if she hadn't done it he wouldn't have let anyone in the world hear it besides himself and Snow. So he just sat back and glanced around from time to time to see how the other two thought about the song.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 6, 2017 20:25:08 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
"I'm gonna make sure we can do something big for our anniversary and be able to thank the fans for supporting us," Yongguk mentioned then and nodded to confirm his own words, but then he stayed quiet to listen to the song. The first part was Snow, which wasn't a suprise for him to hear though he was impressed with how she had sung and rapped. Normally he helped her with recording their songs but it seemed like he had underestimated their maknae a lot. After that it was Jayu's turn and that made him fall even more silent, if that was even possible. His fingers were put to his lips and he nibbed a bit on the tip of his thumb, raising his eyebrows at how he sounded. Snow really had pushed him for quite a big part of the song, not just a few lines, which he was impressed about, and she was just proud of herself by the look on her face. When the song ended he clapped for a moment and smirked. "Yahh! How could you two keep that silent for so long?" He complained and looked at the youngsters. "I knew Jayu had talent for everything he just did, writing, producing and singing, but this beat what I had in mind, to be honest. Probably since that dongsaeng doesn't show a damn thing. Yahh. Jayu, you really need to trust your talents more and believe in yourself more. You're really good, it's not nothing to produce and compose a song by yourself, you did really amazing on that. Ahh, daebak." He laughed softly, being a bit blown away. "This dongsaeng really has a voice fit for ballads! He has some raw emotions and his range is impressive! I really am impressed, Jayu. That blew your hyung away. I hope you will cooperate more on singing in our future songs because I really would be disappointed if you didn't share your talent. Yahh.." He shook his head and laughed softly whilst Snow nodded in full agreement and excitement. "Ahh, and that maknae of ours too, she has more skill in her set than I anticipated," he admitted, making her smile brightly but become shy as well.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 7, 2017 4:38:08 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
Jayu was worried and nervous and afraid, all of it at the same time and it didn't feel good, he felt stressed since he hadn't prepared himself for this to be happening. If only he had had a little more time to prepare himself for all possible reactions. He listened closely to the song, taking in Snow's part in the song and closing his eyes once his parts were coming, opening his eyes slightly to glance at the other members' reactions, afraid that would be the turndown of the song, but it remained silent, they were taking everything in and both Yongguk as Lusi seemed surprised. He was startled when Yongguk clapped when the song ended, looking at him, listening to him as he spoke up about the song and how he was talented as he said. He blushed a bit at the compliment he received by their leader and looked down at his lap. He had tried to think about every possible reaction, but this has never been one of the things he had imagined. Lusi had also been very stunned about how Jayu's voice had come through, as he sang really well and she just couldn't understand how he was so insecure about it. "Yah, Jayu. People would kill to have your voice while singing." She then said as she really was surprised about how much talent their 'useless' newest member was hiding away. She had never expected for the boy to be a hidden gem, so that made their maknae line a lot stronger. Lusi looked at Yongguk and hit his arm softly. "I think we got a thing for our anniversary. Let him sing," she then said as she looked back at Jayu to see if he was fine with it, since she didn't want to push him into things if he really didn't want to, but since Snow had gotten him to sing a big part of the song, she was sure Snow could help her to get that to happen again. Jayu had just looked up and bit his lips softly since he didn't know if that was a good idea. But he could try, right? He wouldn't lose much since his profile still contained rapper, so people wouldn't judge him too much if his vocals didn't turn out right in future songs. Lusi looked over to their maknae and smiled at the youngest. "Ahh, she improved so much too. It's always fun to find out some secrets that turn out to contain a lot of hidden talents as well. And the song is really good too, I love it," Lusi said excitedly now as she clapped her hands slightly, looking at Jayu again. "Ahh, thank you, I really tried my best. Snow helped me a lot with recording though so.." He then said and was actually really thankful towards Snow that she had barged in that day, giving him the opportunity to try something out. He really hadn't expected them to be that excited or even liking it.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 7, 2017 9:49:30 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
"Our leader teached me a bit about producing songs, I otherwise wouldn't have been able to do shit either," she chuckled, making Yongguk flick his finger against her forehead. "Yah, you potty mouth," he spoke with it, shaking his head as he smirked half and looked back at Jayu and Lusi. "I think I have the perfect song for him to sing along with, if you wanna do it of course. I still need someone to sing along and now I've heard that.." He nodded and adjusted himself slightly to sit more comfortably. "I was thinking that for our anniversary we could create subunits, create a full album with songs as a group but also as subunits," he then offered, since they were on the topic anyway. "That way we can show our different abilities as well. Jayu can sing, Lusi can rap, since we've already heard her singing and I know she's a decent rapper too." He explained further, making Snow tilt her head a bit and think about it. The idea sounded really good, but was it gonna work and where they gonna let them? "Oh! We could do boys against girls?" She offered, making Yongguk nod and smirk a bit. "That is perhaps an idea. Though Jayu's song definitely would have to be on the album, fans would go absolutely nuts over it," he pointed out. To him it all seemed like a decent idea, he'd just have to set up a new meeting with their CEO. It was gonna be quite something, but he hoped to be able to do a fan event as well, to be able to personally thank some fans, they'd probably do a live video too.. He was thinking far ahead, it made him a bit more energetic and kept his mind off of all the tragedy from today, but he knew well enough that'd come crashing down on him again as well.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 8, 2017 5:28:18 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
Jayu looked at Snow when she said that she had learned it from their leader and chuckled when she got hit on her forehead because of her word choice. She really didn't have much of a filter on her, but he liked that, it made her who she was and that was important. As long as she didn't curse on tv or live shows, it would be fine, right? He look up at Yongguk when he talked again, tilting his head slightly as he was curious about what kind of song he was talking about. Then again, the question was if he wanted to do it.. He liked singing, even though he was insecure, he liked singing more than rapping. He just never let it show and only did it when he was on his own or when he was taking vocal lessons in secret with their vocal coach. He hoped he would be confident enough to quickly use his voice more, but only if it was worth listening to it. He had improved quite a lot, to his feeling that was. He always heard his vocal coach tell him he didn't need to practice his vocals since he was very strong in it, but he didn't believe it, telling himself that he was just saying it to make him stop bothering him. But now that his other members also said he had a good voice, he could try it, right? "I'll do it," he then mumbled as he looked down at his lap for a second again, looking back up to face the other members once more, listening to everything they were saying. "Me as a rapper? My sisters are going to laugh at me," she said with a chuckled as she thought about it, but did agree to it as she would like to try it all out. Jayu looked at Yongguk again when he said that his song should definitely be on the album, which surprised him a little. "Ahh, just have to divide the parts then," he then mumbled, but he had always had a few songs where he already wrote down which part would fit which member, but they could just choose the parts they wanted if they wanted too, he was sure it would work out great anyway. "Aigo, our little boy is growing confident," Lusi said with a smile, making Jayu blush and look away. "It's just that you guys said it's a good song and my voice turned out well, doesn't have anything to do with confidence," he then said with the same blush on his cheeks and then let out a chuckle. He really had been blessed being in this group, he wouldn't want to know how long he would've been training otherwise and how other people would react to how he acted sometimes.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 8, 2017 19:30:29 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
Yongguk's eyes beamed up with light when Jayu agreed on singing on a song with him, a smirk appearing on his face whilst he nodded thankfully. He hadn't exactly written the song yet, though he had said he had the song ready, but that was a different song than the one that came to mind now. He felt like a concept that had just popped into his head would fit perfectly with Jayu's voice and his rapping, so he was gonna work on that as soon as he had the time for it. He messed with Jayu's hair, smirking half since the boy seemed so shy and insecure and in a way he felt sorry for him, he was compassionate about it since he knew what he was dealing with. Every artist, every person had their insecurities and especially in the entertainment and music business it could be a big problem to deal with. "Better practice hard then," Yongguk smirked at Lusi about her sisters and shrugged a bit. Though he was glad she too agreed. "Take your time with it, we still have a bit before the anniversary and I'll have to talk to our CEO about it again, and the team and staff. But if you need help, don't be afraid to ask. I know how tricky it is to divide the parts," he answered honestly. Since he had written and helped compose all their songs so far, he was familiar with the process and he had to admit it could be challenging. They were all talented and where one seemed to fit best, the other wouldn't have as much lines and he really tried to even that out. "You definitely should be confident about those things, maybe one day you will be. I think we all have our insecurities with our skills. I'm really insecure about my high notes, to be honest. But I do try to do them and I keep practicing them because I get encouraged to do so and when I listen back to the progress I've made, I can admit I don't sound bad. I still hate my voice on certain days, but you gotta admit that if you didn't have your voice or dancing skills or rap skills, you wouldn't be here. You wouldn't be in the group. But you do have so many skills and so you gotta at least admit that to some level you are good. Good enough to be in a group with us. But oppa, honestly, walking in on your singing was both a blessing and a curse. A blessing because you let me in on the song, but a curse because I could've listened to your singing all day. You have no idea how great you are. Your lyrics too, everything about the song that shows your skillset, I really look up to you for it and I really hope you grow more confident," Snow then spoke up, speaking rather soft since she felt uncomfortable and shy admitting her honest feelings this sincerely, but it made Yongguk smile and agree, squeezing her cheek between his fingers.
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Post by Sara Gather on Sept 9, 2017 4:33:36 GMT
Jayu Guwon (Jay) ~ Lusi Saeloon (Lucy)
He smiled slightly when Yongguk seemed happy that he had agreed to do so, even though he had his own doubts. People could tell him all the time that he had a good voice and his singing was good, their vocal teacher sometimes refused to help him with his practice because he thought he was good enough and there was nothing to improve. He didn't believe him, even if he was good he could always do better than he previously did. He had attempted high notes a few times, some of the songs he had written were also with high notes and by trying it every time it came out pretty well. He had written enough songs to make two solo albums of his own if he continued like that. But there wouldn't anyone be going solo until they passed their first year safely, just to be sure. He was pulled out of his thoughts when Yongguk messed with his hair again and pouted. "Hyung~" he whined as he pushed his hand away and tried smoothing his hair out. All the hard work into his hair for nothing, he really had an unfortunate fate.. Lusi looked up at Yongguk when he was talking and nodded. "You better teach me," She said with an innocent smile as she leaned back against him. Jayu nodded when his hyung talked about that it could be tricky to divide a song in parts, having to know which voice would fit best on what place. There were only two rap parts in the song, so he could decide to take on of it on himself and the other was obviously for their leader, but he could also decide to give his part to Snow and he would tackle voices. Their was one high note Snow would have to take, or if he was confident enough he would try. He looked at their maknae when she began her little talk that turned out to be a quite long talk, smiling slightly at her. "I still have my face though, don't forget it's SM," he said with a soft chuckle. "Yah, the song I was singing at that time wasn't for you to listen to, barging in on someone's privacy like that," He said as he gave her a small push. Which reminded him of that time when he was in that practice room with Key. She wouldn't have eavesdropped, would she? She had been downstairs for what she had said, because the so called haunted studio was there. And then her knee.. She could've tripped and hurt her knee and that was what they had heard, but the studio was pretty far from the practice room, the sound wouldn't have been that clear. And she had did it before, she could've done it again. It made him anxious, she could have heard everything he had said to Key, every problem he was dealing with right now. He didn't like the thought of that, and he could still be wrong, maybe she didn't eavesdrop and there would be no problem, but he couldn't help but feel worried. Lusi let the two youngsters do their thing for a bit before looking up at Yongguk and poking his thigh. "Who was the girl from before? You know, the one in funeral clothes that eventually didn't come to the funeral? When I got kidnapped by your twin inside," she said with a sly hint of worry since he had been pissed once he had come back inside from talking with her.
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Post by pieceofmind on Sept 11, 2017 19:45:39 GMT
Bang Yongguk (G) ~ Song Haya (Snow)
She smiled innocently when he mentioned that she had barged in on him, feeling guilty once more for the second time when she didn't get caught. Perhaps it was better to confess, but at the same time she was worried he would get extremely mad. But then again, this guilt was eating her alive and feeding anxiety she didn't even know she had. Perhaps it was indeed better to come clean, that way it could also be a burden off of Jayu's chest and yet still.. She smiled half at his push and chuckled, shrugging slowly. "I'm just clumsy, okay," she mumbled, looking at Lusi and Yongguk when she seemed to tackle a serious subject for their leader. She was curious too, but perhaps this was also the perfect moment to escape and come clean towards Jayu. She doubted it for a while, causing her to see the change in their leader's face. The front he had put up towards them with a bright smirk suddenly became so eerie and yet saddening that it alone was enough to make her run away. She looked at Jayu for a moment and then grabbed his wrist, jumping off the bench and pulling him with her. "Oppa, I need to talk to you about the song~" She mentioned softly, to give some silly excuse that would make her breakaway seem normal towards their elders too, but once out of sight of the two, she let Jayu's wrist go and almost seemed to hide in her cardigan, judging by how she covered her hands with them and pulled it better around her. "Man, I hate seeing him like this," she mumbled to herself in English, having turned slightly away from Jayu and yet talking about their leader since it wasn't the best sight to see from him. She felt sorry for him and yet had a selfish side to herself as well. But that wasn't important now, since somehow she had to confess to Jayu what she knew about him that probably wasn't for her ears, definitely wasn't actually, and then also live with his reaction. She fumbled with her fingers and rings, looking at the ground. "Yah.. Uh.. Oppa.." She tried to start, somehow thinking it would deem obvious so she wouldn't have to actually say what was on her mind, but that probably wouldn't be the case and it just didn't seem right either. "Ahh.. Oppa, I actually need to confess something to you," she spoke softly, clearly nervous and guiltwritten. Looking him in the eye was a no go, she barely could do that when she was being honest to someone, but lying like that was no problem. "I kinda.. Uhm.. I knew you were with Key-sunbaenim. And what happened. And I wasn't tired from running from ghosts, but from you and Key-sunbaenim. I fell on my knee because I haunched too long. I know how you feel- I'm so sorry for eavesdropping again. I couldn't help my curiosity and worry. You seemed to caught up on something and especially when we asked about who you were seeing and I already felt worried sick with our leader and I hate that no one feels exactly okay but tries to act so and I just wanted to know what the hell was going on because no one ever tells me anything since they must think I'm dumb or something because I'm the youngest but I really care about you all, you're my only friends I have and I don't wanna lose you or our leader or Lusi but I know spying on you doesn't help and I can't justify it, I'm really s-sorry and," she took a breath, blurting out that many sentences whilst trying to keep herself together was harder than she imagined. "Just know that any secret is safe with me and I'm fine if you won't talk to me anymore or whatever but I promise I won't tell anyone anything I have heard, not a single soul will know. I'm really sorry. I swear on all that is dear to me that I won't do it again. I- I am truly sorry, oppa. But I hope you also know that it is okay if you actually are.. Y'know, catching feelings for the same side. I totally am cool with it, but so is unnie and I'm sure our leader is too because he even makes sure our songs are for any sexuality," she kept on blurting out, some parts becoming whispers because it felt like even the trees would listen to her otherwise. "All we wish for you is to be happy and confident and healthy, no matter what you like or who you are," she whispered before bowing slightly and keeping her head down even more. Meanwhile Yongguk sat in slight shock for a moment at the sudden question, looking confused when their younger members went away and being at a loss for words for any answer. "A-Ahh.." He stumbled out, looking back with a slightly more sour expression for a moment, thinking about the girl she meant. "That.. Was my ex-girlfriend, yes.. She.." He chuckled quietly and shook his head slightly since anger and sadness boiled up again. He tried to remain calm but it was getting quite hard. "I just broke up with her since I couldn't take her anymore. The disrespect, the lack of support. My attention towards her seemed more important than my grandfather or my music and that's.. That's a no for me. Music is what keeps me going, our group is where my attention lays because I'm constantly around you all and trying to get everything to work out. I couldn't go out to see her anymore due our sudden change in public freedom so.. She got jealous, I suppose. And I understand in one way, but I'm not going to risk my career, future and your wellbeings for a girl that can't appreciate it even after almost two years." He whispered softly, his gaze eventually dropping away from Lusi whilst he cleared his throat and scratched the back of his head. "It's just my luck this past few days," he mumbled softly.
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